So fun fact, one of my favorite movies, I could watch it all the time, is Inception. Whew. I loves me some Christopher Nolan. He is crazy talented. Inception is this suspense movie that makes you think and it’s just fabulous…plus Tom Hardy is super gorgeous with his accent and all. Anyways, Inception is a movie centered on the whole uncertainty of one’s ability to distinguish the real from the unreal when reality and dreams merge. Terrible synopsis. Just go buy it. It’s worth it. I have had dreams within a dream before in, you know, dream land, but in the real world, real life? Nah. Weird.
Well, God found this a fun new way to get my attention. He is seriously funny and as I write this I’m laughing, because He is crazy amazing and so in love with me, in love with me so much that He speaks to me in a way that I will understand. Ok so here’s what happened:
I am 22 and for the last maybe 5 years or less I never really knew my dream/dreams. Some know from like the of age of six that they wanna be a doctor or a rock star, and some actually pursue it, but I wasn’t that kid. My inability to create that lifetime dream followed me through the teen years and into my now adult years that is–until last week.
In attending BSSM, we don’t just listen to powerful sermons, but we have the opportunity to take what we are learning, use our gifts and abilities, and share it with the Redding community. We do this via activations which is pretty awesome. There were like a million options (hyperbole) and my heart leaped for joy when there was one for drama. Now people who know me, know i love acting. I love being on the stage and becoming a character. The stage is the only place I will willing let myself be the center of attention. I often hear, because of my personality, that i would be really good at drama/theater, which is cool and i appreciate it, but it is a huge misconception when it comes to acting.
*sidebar* Some of the most dramatic people, personality wise, are not the greatest actors, yet some of those with the quietest personalities are like brilliant. I’ve witnessed it. There is no set personality formula for what makes an actor awesome sauce. In my opinion, exposure, experience, training, boldness, and a willing to take risks are big factors. Do know personality does play a part, but it is not the main key. Anyways, this is not a post about acting. *sidebar*
Even though I always pushed it on the back burner, I always had a heart for theater and acting. I always took classes while in school and ended my college career taking mostly theater classes and learning so much!! Anyways, after graduating, I pushed acting out the window even though I missed it like crazy. When this opportunity came up, I was ecstatic, till I saw an audition was required.
#FUNFACT auditions are the epitome of acting. It’s like the foundation. It is acting. My professor always pushed the need for us to love auditioning. I really don’t like auditioning. Ha. No surprise there.
Now of course all my nerves start getting crazy and I immediately opted out of the drama activation choosing other ones that sparked my interest. When it came to making my list, the Holy Spirit urged me to put the drama activation down as my second option. I did it and prepared for an audition (I did Juanita’s monologue from James Baldwin’s Blues for Mr. Charlie. Good. Stuff). In the midst of this God says, “I’m gonna make a dream within a dream come true”. Of course I was like, burr? I know the dream at the moment for me, is being at Bethel, in Redding, and soaking up this experience, but I had no idea what other dream He had.
Fast forward.
I go through the audition, and they ask me questions that only the Holy Spirit could fill me up to answer, and it was in those answers to those questions that God filled a void I had for years.
He gave me a dream, a vision.
I honestly believe if one lives a life devoid of a vision, empty of dreams and goals, and lacking passion, he is living unfulfilled. Now, true fulfillment comes not from material things and earthly gratification. Those things provide us with a false sense of fulfillment. They fade. They are uber temporary. You see, ahahahaaa, when you make God, when you make the things of the ETERNAL, your chief passion, when pursuing Him and His glory is your dream, He births within you dreams and visions to further His presence, His glory on earth. It’s kind of like the concept in the movie Inception. In the movie, inception was the process of planting an idea in someone’s mind via a dream, making them think that idea was what they wanted to do from the beginning. It is kind of the same with God and you. When you pursue His presence, His face, God will plant His passion, His vision of and for you in your heart. He will form and cultivate that seed, providing you with new eyes to see yourself how He sees you: completely able and worth it to bring those dreams/desires, the ones you killed off because you feel you couldn’t do it, to pass. Gah. Whew. God is crazy good.
He did just that with me. The more I made and the more I make Him the center, the core of my being, the more He reveals His dreams for me. During that audition, God resurrected a dead dream, a dying desire. What I deemed not for me, He marked with my name and sealed with His love. He breathed His life into it and now, whether I get into this activation or not, I know, in some way, I will be using drama/theater to further His kingdom and spread His supernatural love and heart for His people. It will happen because, God doesn’t give the lovers of His soul empty dreams. Everything He creates has life, is life, and will thrive. I left the audition feeling excited, not because I think I got it, but because I was floored by His love for me, that He blessed me a new dream, a new vision, and that He desires to use me. He sees beyond capable!!!
So my dear reader, dreams within a dream do happen in reality!!! I am proof. It’s crazy weird but totally awesome at the same time. Be encouraged, God is in the mood to resurrect the very dreams and passions you thought were dead for you, if you make Him and His presence the center of your being, your world. It all starts there. Bah.
Til next time,
D